Summer Breeze and Nostalgia

"If only she could be so oblivious again, to feel such love without knowing it, mistaking it for laughter" - Book Thief

Nostalgia

There's something about summer breeze which makes me nostalgic and takes me down the memory lane. It's probably because my brain associates summer breeze with summer holidays, which I got till I graduated from college.

The more I grow up, the more I feel that time's running super fast. Adulthood has that effect of running time at 2X speed, when childhood slowed down time by half.

Childhood was about lot of small things and simple times - kites, paper boats, popsicles, walkman songs days: those 6 songs on tape were more precious than the entire music database we can tap into now at any moment, after school time cartoons, that horror show(aahat) for which you needed your mom to sit beside, pop songs we grew up to - how awesome time 90s was for Hindi pop songs!(Euphoria, Bombay Vikings, Aaryans, Sansaara and now playback singers - Shaan, Sonu Nigam, KK, Alisha, Adnan), family vacations with all the cousins, Kodak reel cameras, playing silly games (dot on palm, stop/statue), that dilemma to buy chocolates or those small lyrics books, dreaded or hated stuff - homework and exams, school uniform, first day of school year - new books covered with brown sheets and new school supplies and all the memorable "wasted" time.

There are lot of people behind that awesome childhood : all the people who have raised you - parents, aunts, uncles, brothers, grand parents - their sacrifices which you only understood after you grew up, friends who shared your mental-ness discussing silliest stuff to abstract serious topics and who always kept an eye on you knowing very well what a mess you are, teachers - who could see you somehow among a whole bunch of kids, who mentored you, who did more than what they had to, who inspired you to learn instead of just reading through the lessons.

20s go by in a blink, I am holding on to the last few months left in my 20s. Parting away from college days and getting the first job of your life, leaving behind the house you grew up in, homesick days and friends who made it better, getting married and just growing up without even realizing it.

Many people whom we thought we couldn't part with may no longer be in our lives and we may have lost some people forever. Yet we are here - surviving through several heart breaks. We did all those impossible things which we dreaded for months together. We forgot our favorite old teddy bears and teenage crushes. Many people we were afraid of judging us are absolutely irrelevant now. Many things which we took way too seriously at some point in our lives and which we worried about all night seem stupid now.


This too shall pass - good and bad. We will survive through everything.
When all those moments are long gone, we would have lived.

"It amazes me what humans can do, even when streams are flowing down their faces and they stagger on, coughing and searching, and finding." - Book Thief

We try to cling on to the past and long to re-live those long gone moments and memories. We go through old photographs as if they are Dumbledore's pensive and can take us back to that scene captured.

Let's not forget to live now while we are looking back- hold on to the now racing time and fleeting moments. This moment you are in now - it might be one of your good times which you will look back to.

"I wish there was a way to know you're in the good old days before you've actually left them." - The Office

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